My Mind Wanders (poemesque)

its one in the morning and my final exam is eight hours away and im not ready and im freaking out and caffeine pumps through my veins PUMPS and it was a bad idea to drink coffee because now im awake and jittery and my mind wont stop so im sitting on my bathroom floor, wallowing in the grime of it WALLOW and yeah its disgusting but i don't care because it's late but its early and i know you think this isnt a poem but you have to realize that it is poetry and in my mind its beautiful and in my mind you're crying because of my words or laughing or raging RAGING but mostly weeping because of its poetic aesthetic i cried today because i love someone and i hate someone and these two people are the same but different bodies but maybe they are the same person does that make it possible to fully love someone and fully hate the exact same person at the same time and what if it were possible for one soul to live in multiple bodies it would change the view of self because you could be talking to someone and it could be your soul and you would empathize with this person more EMPATHIZE and be more open to sharing with them because they were your soul so in a sense they are you just in a different body